Saturday, April 17, 2010

Is it really possible to have it all?

Before I had Jack, on my days off of work, I used to sit around bored and lament on how I needed some sort of hobby. Besides "bumping" and being on Facebook all day.
Then I had Jack and suddenly I went from boring, no hobby life to trying to do to much too soon.
After I quit my full time job, I felt like I had all this time to fill. Jack was such a good baby-and still is- that I searched for things to do while he slept. Suddenly, I found myself starting art projects, business ventures, and this blog!!
But then, a few weeks ago, I realized I am spreading myself too thin. I went to bed each night feeling like I couldn't sleep because I had too much to do. I felt guilty and wondered if I was neglecting my relationships with my husband and my son.
I was there, but I wasn't really "there".
So I cut some things out. I put the art projects in the closet-at least for right now. I put some business ventures on hold for the time being. (Note to self-trying to start a business grass roots, with a new baby, not a good idea at all) And this blogging thing- well it's taken a little bit of a hit too.
I love writing, and I love this new found hobby of blogging. But I'm not doing myself, nor my readers justice if I am blogging, just to blog. If my heart isn't truly in the post. So you may see more of me at times and less at others, but I will still be here. If only to check in on my other blogger friends!
And to answer my own question....No, I don't think you can have it all. But if you sit down and look at what's really important in this life you realize you don't need it all. As long as I have the love of my family and friends-that's all I need!

2 comments:

Jess said...

I'm not sure if this is going to make any sense, but I think you CAN have all. No, you can't have all you ever wanted in the whole wide world, but sometimes if you take a step back and look at your life, you realize that you really do have it all- all you'll ever need :)

Christine said...

I hope your time with your family is going well!!