Monday, January 25, 2010

Working Woman

Going back to work really sucks. I'll just put that out there. I am fortunate enough to only have to work part time now, but leaving my little guy is still hard, even if it is only for a few hours. As I type this he is sleeping beside me and I want so badly to just wake him up so I could make up for the hours I was gone.
I won't though.
Rule #1 of parenting- Never wake a sleeping baby.

I thought quitting my full time retail job would bring me a little peace and take a bit of the stress out of my life, and to some degree it did. But serving the general public can be just as frustrating as a full time job. Don't get me wrong-some people are a pleasure to wait on. But lately I find that most are rude, demanding, and act downright entitled. And of course they are horrible tippers. Of course I could rant about this all day, but then I have wasted my time and the horrible tippers have won.

I really shouldn't be complaining. Life is pretty damn good right now. I have a wonderful husband who helps me with baby and housework, with little to no prodding. And he manages to make me feel beautiful even on days when I haven't showered and look like something that crawled out of Fraggle Rock. Then there is my baby boy. I sometimes wonder what I did to deserve him. He is a champion sleeper, fusses rarely and his smile-which he gives out freely-melts my heart into a big puddle of mush. And on top of all of this, I have a multitude of friends and family that bring me joy every day.

I would be lying if I didn't admit that I have been a little lost since I left my full time job. For six years it took up 40+ hours of my life. It brought me both stress and fulfillment because at the end of the day, no matter how bad the day, I knew I was good at what I did. Even if it wasn't my dream job.
And what is my dream job? This is the journey I am embarking on. What do I do with the rest of my life? How do I find a career that will provided for my family and nourish my soul? Is that job even out there? I know the answers wont come quickly or easily, but I have faith that someday everything will work out the way it is supposed to. Until then I find solace in one of my favorite quotes...

Success isn't determined by riches or fame or by how much you out do the rest.
It's the measure of joy you bring to your life, that determines success.
It's not being better than anyone else, just being better than you've ever been.
You don't need all the answers to everything first, just the will to begin.
You don't need to climb higher, run faster, or soar higher than those who have flown before.
All you need is the wisdom to seek happiness and the courage to make it your own.
Enough of the heavy stuff...tomorrow I will catch up on my DVR and blog about superficial things like the SAG red carpet and TV shows I am loving in right now. Until then I have a poopy diaper to change. I know...my life is soooo glamorous.

1 comment:

tlampley3 said...

Lovin' the blog so far, Ang! You are a great writer! :-) I agree that you can get a little lost after quitting your job, even if you are still working part time. Staying at home can get tough at times (though some think it is cake), but it is all worth it at the end of the day. Keep the blogs a comin'!